The best thing to do with your life is everything. – Amy Rose Spiegel
This quote jumped off the page of a recent book I’ve found my nose in, “Action: A Book about Sex”. Now I must warn you this blog entry has NOTHING to do with sex, it just happens that this hysterical and well-written book got me thinking about the bigger picture of my life.
The best thing to do is everything…..seems pretty self-explanatory. Do everything. Everything that you want. But for me – well that made it all the more difficult. I immediately thought, “what is the ‘everything’ I want to stuff my life with?” What is the ‘everything’?
I’m the person who needs a list, who needs bullet points, who yearns for specifics. This word ‘everything’ is to broad for my understanding and I can’t possibly bring this idea to life if I don’t understand what specifically I’m bringing to life.
So here I am. On the journey to figuring out what my ‘everything’ is going to look like.
I’m currently in a place where I feel like I’m just floating and my long-term goals in general are blurry. I can’t seem to shake the dust out of my eyes or the hesitation out of my breathing. I just don’t know right now.
The one solid goal I have currently is to complete my Masters Degree (seeing as its only the first semester of my career as a Graduate Student I’ve got a bit of time left working on that one). This one solid goal is being worked towards every single day: I’m either reading books or articles or Dissertations or I’m writing wordy yet eloquent papers of my own.
But sometimes I think this one long-term goal, another degree, another piece of paper, has me putting hold on any other creative aspirations or adventurous aspirations or career aspirations. This one long-term goal doesn’t even help me solidify what it is I want to “do” for a career. Obviously the degree puts me in a specific field: Theatre Education. But believe it or not I have multiple roads I could take within that field. I have no interest in being a classroom teacher (at least not for any of the first 12 grades) and yet here I am studying Theatre Education.
Obviously you can sense my confusion with all my rambling.
I can’t figure out what my everything is. So I’ve come here to type it out and see what list of things I come up with. Thus I think it’s time I literally make a list – a list of the things I want to fill my life with:
- I want to laugh on a daily basis. I want to make others laugh. I want people in my life to make me laugh in the best way. I want to learn to laugh at myself.
- I want to love and be loved daily. I want to cultivate love in others. I want to see love change the world.
- I want to travel and see the world. I want to explore the natural beauty of this earth. I want to rock climb, swim, hike in magical places. I want to gather experiences.
- I want to cultivate art in this world. I want to create. I want to use the arts to change lives, because I know they can.
- I think laughter, love, and adventure all come with teaching.
So I’ll admit to you – that list took no time at all to write. It came out before I could think about it. It came out earnestly and passionately. And here I sit dumb-founded at the fact that I seem to know what I want.
Now none of that list is concrete – there’s nothing I can sit down and create, I can’t write a paper that is love, I can’t dance laughter………
or can I? I’m backtracking again because here in lies the truth. I’ve always thought I had no direction, but my direction is clearly stated above – I must work towards a life filled with love and laughter, with a plethora of adventures, and days filled with teaching theatre/arts in order to do my part to change this world, to create this world. To create. To cultivate.
That word is my everything – cultivate.
How could I not have seen it before? Cultivate. That’s what I want to stuff my life with – the cultivation of love, laughter, adventure, theatre, inspiration, education.
I suppose the hard part is figuring out how to manifest that life. But….well this is a start.